Staceybob Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Hey guys! So some know that I have gone on the LEAP course with Derby College that aims to help sufferers with mental health gain confidence and look forward to the future and also set goals for themselves. I've been really nervous about it and yesterday was my first day. In the morning I felt really sick and not like myself at all, Robyn and her mum noticed I wasnt feeling to good but they kept encouraging me and I pushed myself to go. I got on my bus and a petrol tanker had tipped over, so the driver said, people for the college will have to get off here and walk. I had no idea where I was, but I spotted some people that looked like students and decided to follow them. I eventually arrived and my social worker was waiting for me. Because of the crash people were running late so it gave me chance to settle down in the class room and talk to my social worker about Aleu and Robyn to take my mind off of things. However, I spent the morning barely managing to get my words out and was stuttering like crazy. I ended up only eating half of my lunch because one of my alters, Zak, decided to emerge so a lost a bit of my day but my carers and tutor said that it was ok and that Zak didn't cause any trouble which was great. I was stunned at how well they coped with it, but I assume they must have read my profile and have an understanding of how my disorder works before I came to enroll properly. I had many opportunities to run away yesterday and leave, but thankfully I didnt. It was a really hard day but I stuck with it and even got to doodle a picture of Aleu on my Independant Learning Profile which my tutor thought was awesome. And last night I came to huge cuddles from Robyn and Aleu who were really proud of me and I had a good cry because it was a bit of a wake up call for me that there is support available and that hopefully one day I can make something of myself and turn around and say, I pulled through. I may have alters but we can try to work together to make this life managable. I've also had my letter for PsychoDynamic Therapy which I will be starting hopefully next week =]. Thanks for reading, Just wanted to share how proud I am of myself because for me it's an unusual feeling. Stacey xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andy Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Well done. Great to see you getting on with studies. You can't get anywhere without qualifications. You'll do great. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stormchaser09 Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Well done, What a stressful day and you managed to deal with it - what an achievement and you deserve to be proud of yourself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rich & Kody Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Congrats Stacey, Have to say its impressive to see someone so confident and willing to discuss openly about their condition. Wish you all the best. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lil Miss Bump Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 well done :-) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rosemary Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Stacey, that's fantastic. Well done Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Staceybob Posted March 3, 2011 Author Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Thanks everyone. I didn't like to talk about my condition before, but since I started talking to others suffering with the same condition I realised that I can either be who I am, or I can act fake, and I would rather my friends knew me for who I am as a whole than just one part of me =] Stacey xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
meeshsalts Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Hi Stacy Welldone on going to college. As you know I'm a Person Centred Counsellor but have done training in PsychoDynamic Therapy so if you have any questions or advice please feel free to PM me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Staceybob Posted March 3, 2011 Author Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 I'll send you a PM Meesh, that's really nice of you. At the minute I have no idea what Im going to be facing when I go, so it would be nice to know more. Stacey xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
elenamarie Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Congratulations Stacey! The first day is always the hardest. You can do it! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
slaves to kaya Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Stacey, well done, sending you big pats on the back Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tamz Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 well done stacey...glad to hear its all gone well Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Staceybob Posted March 3, 2011 Author Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Thanks everyone! I get my college card next week =] Stacey xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BingBlaze n Skyla Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 well done stacey! really happy for you - first day is always the worst - i remember my first day at college - i was only gonna be there for a couple of hours but it was only like 3 years ago i did it n it was scary but then u make friends with peeps n then its not so bad Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Austinville Posted March 3, 2011 Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Excellent! So very happy for you (and proud of you too!) :-) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Staceybob Posted March 3, 2011 Author Report Share Posted March 3, 2011 Thanks everyone =] Stacey xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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